Can I face this life? The chances were vanished.I'm too stupid to use them properly.
I'm gambled for failure and victory.I need a second chance.I'm lost because I had
to focus at two major matters,between academic and myself.

Now,I'm asking for second chance.What if I failed,who I gonna be..
Need the chance..so I can change my life in future in my own ways.
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If failed to get 6As up to 9As...The dreams will only turn ashes.This is about my future,my
fairy tales,my story,my world..I hope someday I can tell the generations after me to take
values from my life.I'll not gonna wastes these minutes and hours except in changing my
fate..When the time comes I'll type it here.....

I think I've drowned in the earth's lies.I felt that I'm too far from the truth.I really cannot accept my condition now however that's the reality.This reality hurts..

I went out from His bless,light,pathway of truth and His love..I'm cruel!! I cruel to my own God the one who always looks after me for every moments,cares me...No wonder I've never got what I wanted..

I'm to0 far from His blessings.I'm really crossed the line.I'm t0o fascinated with this
terrifying place.It's like a jail for me sometimes.I don't want to lost.I want to reach
the greatness.A greatness of being a good servant of Allah S.W.T.

I really wanted to life at short moments however I'm not ready to face the punishment of
grave,to face Him.I admit that I'm lacking of merits.

Can I survive...I need helps...I need guides..

The obstacles came without signs without mercy..
The obstacles still unanswered and came the others out of nowhere..
This heart is dying..Not mercy of man is been wished for but mercy of Him

I need helps not mocks and insults..
Believe me my life is fulled with loneliness,quietness,insults,mocks,obstacles