This blog will be froze forever from this moment.I'm sorry for this inconvenient.
I moved to blog addressed

Okay.See you there..


This blog will freeze forever because I want to start a new one since my accout was a messed.
I cannot with the differences.Read the recent post because it told somethings about myself.
If you can find it I bet you are a guesser.

Sorry if the blog is very emotional..I'll post when I make a new blog.I luv u guys so much..
Take this flying kisses for you.Muaahhh!!mwach


Do you hear the beautiful and soothing song in my blog.It's really calming me actually.
O..Allah I don't deserve your heaven and other merits however I also scare on what
kinds of treats that I'll get from You,the angels,prophets..

I know I don't deserve it because of my own weaknesses.You gave " it" for me silently.
Please give me guides to accept 'it" in my breaths,words,thinks,emotions,my stories,
my memories,my life,my journey towards You.

Even it hurts me so bad but it doesn't if I can feel Your appearance,Love,How calm in
worship You.

Ya Allah You knows that no one understands me except You and proud_muslim(female).
Thank you for letting her to understand the hardships that I'm facing.But where's she
currently?Where have she been? If she's in pain please help her..Help her.All her advices
were motivating.They made me felt that there's a person cares about me..Thanks for
the person who feels me..

I have been judge that heaven is not for me.I have been told that I is not Prophet Muhammad would me nice if my blogger friends can feel me and understand me the
way I should be.I'm just 15 and I can't find my strength yet.

I'm suffering in "it",loneliness,quietness,sadness..Allah give me a powerful strength to face
all these by myself..

I really need care,advices,motivating words..Remember that if you help your brother who
needs help Allah will lighten your hardships in the afterlife..I help others however what I get
just insults,mocks,hatred...


Memperjuangkan Islam..Terlalu banyak cara yang dapat dilakukan demi memperjuangkan
Islam.Sesetengah mereka dengan memilih jalan dengan menjadi seorang pendakwah,mufti,
..........tak terbilang.

Diriku disini memilih jalan yang berbeza,biarpun tiada mereka setuju namun inilah yang inginku
lakukan.Inilah pilihanku yang hanya aku yang mengerti dan memahaminya kecuali Allah S.W.T.

Jalanku pilih sungguh lain daripada yang lain.Sesuatu yang terlalu pahit bagiku telah mempengaruhi jiwa dan fikiranku untuk kearah itu.Biarlah tidak pergi hilangnya
cacian dan tomahan kepadaku asalku selalu mengingati Tuhankku.

Inilah hidup seorang ......................Sungguhnya ujian yang aku hadapi berbeza daripada mereka
yang dapat merasai kehidupan di dunia yang baru.Caraku berfikir sungguh berbeza dan
mustahil bagi mereka untuk memahaminya.

Caraku Pilihanku Hakku Namun Kalian Masih Jelek Dengannya..Hanya keburukan yang
hadir dihati tentang pilihan dan kehidupanku..

I am so stress..I don't know what will I get when the result come out..
I'm struggling with math and geo..I don't know what to do now..stress

I was very excited few moments ago.In my mind,that I can send message to Dr.Maza cause I
wanted his helps and opinions about my problem(from his blog). Unfortunately,I can't since there was no space to contact him.No email..What a sad moment for me.(buat malu to myself je.=p)

I hope I can..

Can I face this life? The chances were vanished.I'm too stupid to use them properly.
I'm gambled for failure and victory.I need a second chance.I'm lost because I had
to focus at two major matters,between academic and myself.

Now,I'm asking for second chance.What if I failed,who I gonna be..
Need the I can change my life in future in my own ways.

If failed to get 6As up to 9As...The dreams will only turn ashes.This is about my future,my
fairy tales,my story,my world..I hope someday I can tell the generations after me to take
values from my life.I'll not gonna wastes these minutes and hours except in changing my
fate..When the time comes I'll type it here.....

I think I've drowned in the earth's lies.I felt that I'm too far from the truth.I really cannot accept my condition now however that's the reality.This reality hurts..

I went out from His bless,
light,pathway of truth and His love..I'm cruel!! I cruel to my own God the one who always looks after me for every moments,cares me...No wonder I've never got what I wanted..

I'm to0 far from His blessings.I'm really crossed the line.I'm t0o fascinated with this
terrifying place.It's like a jail for me sometimes.I don't want to lost.I want to reach
the greatness.A greatness of being a good servant of Allah S.W.T.

I really wanted to life at short moments however I'm not ready to face the punishment of
grave,to face Him.I admit that I'm lacking of merits.

Can I survive...I need helps...I need guides..

The obstacles came without signs without mercy..
The obstacles still unanswered and came the others out of nowhere..
This heart is dying..Not mercy of man is been wished for but mercy of Him

I need helps not mocks and insults..
Believe me my life is fulled with loneliness,quietness,insults,mocks,obstacles

Sorry if the transformation of this blog is not as good as before.
I'm just sick of black colour backgrounds.It just made me more sad.
I would to say sorry to my followers because of my posts u felt offended.
I'll make this blog as attractive and HAPPY as I can.
Sorry cause my recent posts were emotionally sad..

Anyway,most of the recent posts I have deleted since the blog took lots of seconds to load on
due to the over quantity of posts and articles.

I also changed the title of the blog since the ex-title was lame..=P
Please give me some motivational words to face PMR soon.If u care..=P


I really have the enthusiastic desire in biology even though I've never touched a book
about it since I'm in form 3.I've said to sis that I want to a biologist someday but
She said that I'm just built castle in the air cause I never learn about biology. :P

The above shows the principles of the foundation of modern biology:

Biology(from Greek βιολογος - βίος, bios, "life"; -λογος,-logos , study of) is the science that
studies living organisms.

Biology examines the structure,function,growth,origin,evolution,distribution and classification
of all living things.Five unifying principles form the foundation of modern biology:cell theory,
evolution,gene theory,energy and homeostasis.

Cell Theory-All living organisms are made of one or more cells, the basic living unit of function in organisms. All cells come from preexisting cells that multiply through cell division.

Evolution-Through natural selection and genetic drift, a population's inherited traits change from generation to generations A living organism's traits are encoded in DNa.

Genes- Segments of DNA that, taken as a whole, specify a trait are known as genes. In addition, traits are passed on from one generation to the next by way of these genes. All information transfers from the genotype, the unobservable genetic traits, to the phenotype, the observable physical or biochemical characteristics of the organism. Although the phenotype expressed by the gene may adapt to the environment of the organism, that information is not transferred back to the genes. Only through the process of evolution do genes change in response to the environment.

Homeostasis-The physiological processes that allow an organism to maintain its
interval enviroment not withstanding its external environment.

Energy- The attribute of any living organism that is essential for its state. (e.g. required for

Examples of structures in cells:

What are the needs to be a biologist?

their analytical and critical mind
inquisitive mind
love to see = OBSERVE and then stand back , have a few reflection on things that have been observed,read , read

and lastly to appreciate the discipline itself as a tool to
a) bring you closer to GOD
b) the contribution / impact it has on our civilization/ knowledge tradition

I don't know what was happened to me just now.I felt lost..Felt there was no people who
knows me.The most painful moment today was when they called,talked behind my back,
talked about my weaknesses.

Only Allah knows how I felt at those moments.I am just endured myself from mad at them.
I accepted it with a broke-heart..Only Allah knows how I felt Only He knows who's me

Ya Allah sesungguhnya hanya Kau yang mengetahui siapa sebenarnya aku
Sesungguhnya mereka jahil tentangku
Bicara bernada halus kemaafan
Namun penghinaan fitnah umpatan
Yang dibalas
Jika aku terlalu hina untuk berada disini
kenapa aku dilahirkan
Setiap hari-hari berlalu
Hanya bertemankan duka dan airmata
Bagai melukut di tepi gantang kini
Hanya menantikan hidayah dariNya
Hanya ingin merasai kehadiranNya

Wahai teman-temanku, kalian sebenarnya jahil tentangku.Jadi janganlah kalian menzalimiku
dengan kata-kata kalian yang hanya berbaur kebencian dan penghinaan.Sesungguhnya
bukan kekuatan yang dihitung tetapi amal ibadat yang dihitung..

Ku sedari ibadatku selama ini tidak ubah seperti dedebu nan dosa.Namun ku malu
mengakuinya kerna pelbagai yang tiada kumiliki..Ku takut jika kukalah dalam agama.
Ku mengakui kuseorang insanyang hina.Ujianku sebenarnya telah mengajarku apa ertinya hidup.Bukan untuk dinikmati tapi untuk dipenuhkan dengan beribadat kepadaNya..

Kekuranganku bukan ingin kalian mengambil iktibar
Kalian hanya menambah deritaku hanya menambah dosa
Namun kutetap redha keatas jika ini rintangan untukku
Biarlah kalian mengatakan nereka adalah tukku
Namun Allah yang berhak mengadiliku
Besar kekuranganku namun lebih besar kelalaian kalian
Biarpun tidakku dengar kata-kata meminta maaf namun
Sudah kumaafkan

Bukan simpati manusia yang ku dambakan..Hanya simpatiNya
Ku ingin dugaan hidupku ini mampu menangkat darjatku disana
Biarlah darjatku di bumi ini hina asalkan Tuhanku redha terhadapku

Wahai hati usah kau peduli mereka..Mereka hanya jahil tentangmu
Walaupun duka seperti ditusuk duri-duri kebencian
Maafkanlah mereka...Maafkan..Biarpun tiada yang memahamimu
asalkan Tuhanmu redha dan kasih terhadapmu
Maafkanlah mereka semoga Dia redha terhadapmu..

Sungguh bertuah kalian kerna diri ini insan yang dizalimi kalian
Ku hanya berbalaskan kemaafan bukan kebencian..

1. Kesabaran yang disertai iman kepada Allah memebawa kemenangan.

2. Orang yang bahagia adalah orang yang merendah diri dan mengharapkan syafaat dari Tuhannya dengan amal-amal solehnya.

3. Bila kamu memohon sesuatu daripada Allah dan berdoa, maka ikhlaskanlah niatmu. Demikian pula puasa dan sembahnyangmu.

4. Janganlah bersumpah dengan keadaan kamu berdusta dan janganlah menuntut sumpah dari orang yang berdusta agar kamu tidak menyekutui mereka dalam dosa.

5. Bertaatlah kepada raja-rajamu dan tunduklah kepada pembesar-pembesarmu serta penuhilah selalu mulut-mulutmu dengan ucapan syukur dan puji kepada Allah.

6. Janganlah mengiri orang yang mujur nasibnya kerana mereka tidak akan banyak dan lama menikmati kemujuran nasibnya.

7. Barangsiapa melampaui kesederhanaan, tidak suatupun akan memuaskannya.

8. Tanpa membahagi-bahagikan nikmat yang diperolehi, seseorang tidak dapat bersyukur kepada Allah atau nikmat-nikmat yang diperolehinya itu.




"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan,"Kami telah beriman."("I am full of faith to Allah")sedangkan mereka tidak diuji?Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."
-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3


"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216


"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya,"
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286


"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah. dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati,padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."
-Surah Al-Imran ayat 139


"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembhyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk."
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45


"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu'min,diri,harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka... ?
-Surah At-Taubat ayat 111


'Cukuplah Allah bagiku,tidak ada Tuhan selain dariNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."
-Surah At-Taubat ayat 129


"......dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir."
-Surah Yusuf ayat 12

Bersabar wahai hamba-hamba yang sedang diuji sesungguhnya Dia menyayangimu cuma
kamu sahaja yang tidak mengetahuinya.

Telah ku mungkiri janjiku lagi...

Walau seribu kali...Ku ulang sendiri...

Aku takkan tempuh lagi

Apakah kau terima...Cintaku lagi..

setelah ku berpaling dari pandangan Mu

Yang kabur kerana jahilnya aku

Mengapa cinta Mu tak pernah hadir

Subur dalam jiwaku agarku tetap bahagia

Tanpa cintaku tetaplah kau disana

Aku tanpa cinta Mu bagai layang-layang terputus talinya...

Kasih dari Mu ku dambakan Oh Tuhanku...

Masihkah ada sekemit belas..

Mengemis kasihMu Tuhan..

Untukku berpaut dan bersandar

Aku disini kan tetap mencuba

Untuk beroleh cintaMu walau ranjaunya menusuk pedih...